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Wednesday, March 12, 2008 Y

im so freaking pissed rite now! plus sad... is it really true? when they say im selfish... is it true? am i? am i selfish jus becos i dun let dad use the comp for like only 1 hr? everyday i've been letting dad use the comp at 12-1. and only for today i told dad tht i stil wna use the comp and i've been told tht im selfish? i mean... come on laa... who's the one who is selfish rite now? me or dad? EVERYDAY i'll have to let him use the comp. and whenever i say no cos i wna use, he'll keep on pestering me to let him. and to prevent me from getting irritated by him, so i let him. and its really everyday you see... on weekdays PLUS weekends. on weekdays when i really sorta dun let him, he'll say this... "can laa.. i jus finish work ma. so must relax and use the comp." and so i let him use the comp. and on weekends, he'll say this, "can laa... on weekends must rest ma. den on mon start work alr wht.. so cannot use the comp." and so, everyday during weekdays, at 12 til 1 afternoon, i have to let him play. den at ard 5, when he came back from work, i still have to let him play. and on weekends, he'll be the first person to wake up and use the comp til late at night. provided if he didn't go out. and today, for the like first time in history, i told him sternly tht i wna use the comp. and he said this, "if cannot let me play den jus say laa. why must u talk to me in tht kind of manner?" and im so ??? i mean.. if i were to talk to him nicely, he'll definitely pester me. and tht's why i told him sternly and he said tht? and then he walk away. and so, i thought it was over laa.. but NO! mum came in and ask.. "why u dun let dad use the comp? only for 1 hr wht..." but she say it in a nice manner laa... but i didn't ans. cos i noe she won't understand me anw. and next, the irritating, fcuking brother came in and talk to me angrily. "ehh! why cun u let dad use the comp? 1 hr only also cannot? and why must u talk back rudely to him? i tell u arh... u dun be rude ok! u think u who? let him use for 1 hr only also cannot. selfish la u! and i tell u arh. dun act like a princess here ok!" and im like... fcuk off laa.. but of course, i didn't say it laa. wht's princess got to do with all dese? so lame shit! and he say abt me being rude? ok... i noe maybe the way i talked to dad was abit rude and im sorry. but he dun have the rights to tell me tht im being rude cos he himself is fcukin rude! and he told me tht his rude-ness is jus play2 only. and im like hell yea... he always thinks he's right. and jus becos he older den me doesnt mean tht he can do whtever he like with me. and for ur info, he've been treating me as tho im a bean bag u see... everyday, every second... without fail.. whenever he sees me doing something, like watching tv, play comp, read newspaper.... anything laa.. he'll come to me and give me a punch. and he thinks its not painful but it is! i mean come on laa... u're a guy seh. and u're punching a girl? its such a coward act. and i might even have bruises on my hand becos of him and did he noe tht? NO!!! and sometimes, he'll jus take my beloved stitch and blanket and jus bite it. and thr's one time when i was video-ing a video clip, he was screaming at the top of his voice at the end of the video. and he finds it so funny and kept on laughing. and if ppl burp, it'll be definitely smelly rite? and u noe wht he did? whenever he feels like burping, he'll rite infront of me! and its like so gross! and not only tht. he had even farted right infront of my face before. and all these things tht he did to me, he said it was jus a joke? i mean come on laa... if u were in my shoe, do u think tht wht he did was merely a joke? isnt that rude? and he dared talk to me abt rude-ness. and i told him this, "dun u talk to me abt having to respect others when u urself dun even have any respect towards others." and tht was when he said tht wht he did was merely a joke. joke indeed... he and mum went out for awhile now. and before leaving, mum ask me to bring the clothing tht she hang outside in if it rains. and tht fcuker interupted. he said, "you better fold all the clothes before i came back. if i see tht the clothes are not fold, im gna beat u up." and i told him tht he had no rights to tell me wht to do. dun even care if he heard it anot. im so not folding it! if i wna do it, i'll do it. i dun need someone like him to tell me to do it.

i didn't wna post abt this actually. but im jus so pissed and sad. and i also dun wna talk abt my irritating bro, but i have no choice. i cun take it anymore. it jus seems like im nth to dem. im like a piece of shit in this family. dey dun even understands me let alone respect me. and they expect me to understand dem and respect dem? im jus so sad rite now.... why am i treated this way? how i jus wish i was not born. so tht this wouldnt have happen. my head feels like exploding rite now. i jus wish i have someone to talk to right now. someone who really understands me... sigh~

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12:55 PM; simplyME.