Thursday, September 04, 2008 Y
I've changed.
NOT!.............................................or have I?
Had an arguement with a friend ystd. Well, it's not really an arguement I must say. I think it's only a misunderstanding, whr one refuse to understand the other tht leads to arguement. I'm not saying tht I'm at fault or I'm right. I'm just saying tht maybe both of us don't understand or refuse to understand each other. Tht's why thr's an arguement. I'm sure that friend of mine knows tht I'm actually referring to him. Well, whtever.
Anw, I don't know actually wht caused this arguement to occur. It was said tht it's all becos of me. My way of texting and my way of talking were totally different these few days. I don't think so. Cos I know I'm still me. Or am I?
He texted me first. Texting me saying tht I've change and all. And I'm like yea, first thing to do is to shoot them straight in the face w/o giving them warning. Is tht wht you call courtesy? Don't understand this part? Then scrape it. Not important. Well anw, back to this. We texted awhile only. Cos I refuse to reply his last msg. Reason? Tell you ltr.
I've change? Is it really true tht I've change? Cos I don't think tht I've change a single bit. And you said wht? Maybe it's because of wht people said tht make me change. Aren't you being paranoid here? Why must you link those two up? These two aren't abit related. Do you know why you actually feel tht I've change ever since the day tht they started talking? It's because you think too much my friend. Yea, maybe I've change. I don't know. Bt even if I have change, the reason is definitely nt because of tht ok. It's merely a coincidence. I happens to maybe change right after that incident. Bt seriously speaking, I'm least or not at all affected by wht they said ok. I don't know la bt from my point of view right, well, it's wht I think la. You are very well welcome to object. I think you're the one who's affected by it. I can't find a reason to give you bt I just feel tht you're actually affected by it. I may be wrong bt like I said, it's from my point of view only.
We talked abt egos ystd and I think tht everybody has their ego-ness in them. It's the matter of having big egos or small egos. I don't know why you said tht my ego is bigger than yours. Bt from wht I see, tht's not the issue actually. I don't care who have bigger egos than who cos like I said everybody are ego. Big or small only. And ystd, the way you walked past me and the way you talked, only one word to described. E-G-O. I wanted to talked nicely to you ystd bt your behaviour ystd made me nt to say anything. Told you tht ystd and you said wht? I'm the one who started it first? Started wht first?? And even if I started it first, must you do tht? You know why you did tht? It's becos of ur ego and maybe its becos you wanted to get even with me. Isn't it? Yuo also said tht even if you've did tht ystd, I could still walk up to you and say something. And you know why I didn't? It's becos I think tht thr's no use to walk up to you and say something. Cos why? Becos of your ego. Or maybe becos of mine too. So, even if I walked up to you, thr's nth tht both of us can do. In short, it's actually pointless. I was taken aback by your last sentence in tht last msg. Esp when you put '!' in the msg. By putting '!' in a msg, it can only mean 1 thing. Tht you're actually saying whtever you're saying with a loud voice. Either happy or angry. Bt in your case, I'm sure it's becos you're angry. Right? I didn't know tht I'm a self-centered person. Only care abt my feelings and not others. Plus, you're putting '!' in ur msg so I guess you want tht info to get thru my thick skull rite? The only word I can say is thanks. Thanks for making me realise tht I'm a self-centered person. Thanks for making me realise tht I only think of my own feelings and neglect others. Thanks for making me realise tht. So I guess tht is actually the reason why we are as close. Becos of me being self-centered tht lead us to an arguement. I'm sorry. Now, we won't be arguing anymore cos we won't be talking to each other anymore and so, I won't hurt your feelings anymore. People, don't come close to me cos you might be the next victim. I might hurt your feelings and I don't want that to happen.
PS: I won't be updating for awhile. Don't ask.
1:27 PM;
simplyME.
